ALBUQUERQUE....not sure if i spelt it right...but you know what i mean

This past weekend Emery and I had the opportunity to go visit my mom down in Albuquerque. It was tons of fun. On saturday we had breakfast with her "friend" chuck at The Grove, and there was a bird flying around inside haha. He was a very nice man. Then we went over to the Aquarium which was awesome. We got to touch little sting rays and they felt really soft instead of slimy like i thought they would. Most of these pictures are from that day. Then we went and fed the Ducks and they were naughty ducks they'd come so close to us i got a little scared a few times. Emery just thought it was funny and was laughing. We then were just driving around and ended up on an indian reservation where my mom wanted to go in and get bread but i was a little scared. I'm a baby in places im not familiar with. Then we went to old town and found this freakin awesome retro toy store where all of the toys don't need batteries like the wind up chattering teeth and the wind up old robots the punching bozo the clown bag. I got a gumby and pokey doll for emery which i was pretty stoked about. Then on sunday we went to church, then the standard diner and then the childrens science museum which emery also loved. She got to play with water and lights and air all different sorts of things. It was really fun to watch her little brain going to work. She's such a smart little miss. We also saw a bunch of hot air balloons which albuquerque is known for. Then on monday we went on the TRAM! it was -15 degrees at the top because of the wind chill...but it was a really cool thing to go on. Emery was pretty stoked. We then tried to find me some boots but alas ran out of time and i had to go to the airport. sorry i know this is like a 5th grade writing level but hey whatever works :P Grandma and Emery at Gardunos mexican resturant, we were serinaded by a mariachi band.

Emery staring at the sting rays in the water.

Sea Horses...sorry it's blurry.

Freakin awesome jelly fish...sooo cool looking

More jellys

some more from the shoot

photo shoot!

Emery had her pictures done yesterday at Wheeler Farm by Andee. These were the ones she stuck on her blog last night so of course i had to put them on mine. I can't wait to see the rest of them!

Haiti

I was just looking at some of the pictures and i almost started crying! There was a man holding his daughter who had died and his face...after about 3 more pictures i thought to myself..i need to stop looking at these. I feel a huge amount of sadness for the people of haiti....I really don't want to be around utah when the earthquake hits here.

3 whole years...

It's been 3 years today since i lost someone very very close to me. It's kind of crazy to look back at my life then and think about this day 3 years ago...and my emotions that were unbearable, the thought that he was gone was overwhelming my whole life seemed to be destroyed in one foul swoop. The phone call from the police officer while i was at work at my music store....the shock...and then the wall of disbelief until i just colapsed on the ground and just cried..then i called my dad...no answer so i called again and he answered and i just blurted it out inbetween my sobs. he came to get me...i often wonder what he thought as he was driving to the mall...i don't remember much after that. i dont' remember where we went or who i talked to after that. i think a part of my soul died that day...such a huge loss at a young age.

And then i think of my life now.

I have the most amazing little spirit of a daughter. Who is sooooo good to me as a mom. I have an awesome family both steps and not steps who are the most hilariously wonderful people. My life has recovered. I have recovered i see all of the blessings that i have and im greatful that im still here expieriencing the beauty of this world. Sure i have my hard days but their nothing like they once were, and for that i am greatful.

Just know that i love all of you and im glad your in my life!

pics

i love this little girl

the latest greatest trick of emery

Sleeping! It seems that every other day she is so tired by lunch time that when Rhonda is giving her lunch....she just passes right out. I think it's so funny.